you spend your whole life attempting
to be like all the others
and you wonder why your heart
won't cave and
why the boys
they mean nothing.
you chide yourself for your cruelty
and expect next time to be different
yet it never changes,
you meet her
and she inflames you
like nothing else
and you spend years chasing her memory
and crying because she is gone.
you do not realize the importance of this lesson.