Tuesday, December 5, 2006

your knife waits

it's either
a sharp, bottom-of-pit
ache
or a nauseatingly
full slosh these days,
and though no one mentions
anything,
because of course you're aren't
really all that thin
[all things considered]
you know the signs. they
confront you
when you least expect it,
holding their truths
in the mirror
the way you judge everything
more harshly than anyone
you get sick more easily now,
the fact that the stairs make you
out of breath. your mind
is a cloudy haze. is this
the same affliction, or
something newer you've developed
from your nasty little habit
of refusing to eat?
who cares.
hold your insanity to yo
like a shield.
sink into the covers,
head aching, stomach
roiling,
the world revolving around you.

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